S/U Option? Graduating Year? Convocation…2010??? WHAT THE HELL!!!!

Oh my god… Seriously shit scared abt getting a U for Biz Finance. Took it cuz I wanted to expand my knowledge and be more all-rounder you know, and seems like I’m gg to U it cuz I am not quite the all rounder I cut myself out to be.

It would certainly be ridiculous if I graduate with higher class honors than my peers and they graduate earlier than me… JUST BECAUSE I U BIZ FINANCE IN MY FINAL SEMESTER.

SERIOUSLY JASMINE, WHY SO GE KIANG?

Argh. Biz Finance seriously injured my ego. Im like always wondering what’s going and and when I studied for the exam, I thought that alot of things became clear to me. UNTIL… I took the exam. That is when I realized, OH CRAP, maybe Im still a noob afterall.

I wouldnt mind getting a U for Biz Finance if it wasn’t my FINAL SEMESTER. Big deal, take again, doesn’t affect my GPA anyways. BUT BUT BUT if I get the dreaded U, OH SHIT man… I CANT GRADUATE. I CANT GO FOR CONVOCATION WITH MY FRIENDS. I GOT TO STUDY IN UNIVERSITY FOR ONE MORE SEMESTER LIKE A RETARD. I WILL BE A CONFIRMED LIABILITY IN THIS TERRIBLE ECONOMIC TIME.

And truth be told, it INJURES my EGO quite abit. How about like MAJORLY? Seriously right now, I am so scared I can’t concentrate on studying for my next paper. Which is one day away.

Oh my god. Please let me S Biz Finance and find a job in peace. Baldy if you’re there, pls watch over me! I know I always look to you when I feel like I’m in shit like this, but well… you won’t mind right?

The only silver lining in this dark grey gathering storm is that one of my conference papers that I submitted to AMIC got through, and we (Joanne and I) are going to India to present our paper. This makes me feel a little cleverer after the battering I suffered from Biz Finance. You know, at least I am not entirely dumb. There is some salvage value to me *argh Biz Finance term. What the hell right? I did study, I am just retarded in that!!!*

I have newfound respect for what Boo studies.

Jasmine

Australia!!!

I will be heading off to Australia the day after my exams! Talk about cool, talk about being a jetsetter man! Hahah… Although I’m a little concerned whether this will clash with interviews and stuff… So I must remember to:

1) Activate my phone to Pay as you roam in case I receive impt calls. I will reject all other calls that are deemed unimportant unless you proffer to pay my bills,which is unlikely, I noe. Recession….
2) Wash my clothes before I fly (if there’s time)

Okies… I noe I must do smth else, but I kinda forgot… Crap. Darn short-term memory. Oh crap, which reminds me abt my impending Business Finance exams on Monday with their multitude of gurgling, convoluted formulas. Like what the crap. Why is there no formula sheet? Although I would v much prefer open book, a la SMU. My memory is seriously whacked. Retains retarded stuff like telephone nos (who needs them when you have hps?) and is absolute mush for formulas. God bless me. I just want to graduate in peace this June.

Hmm… nth much is up otherwise. Kinda excited to see my Peepee tom. It’s been like 5 days! The longest so far? Maybe… Wonder how I’ll survive Australia… But still, it shd be fun if Boo and I dont tear each other’s hair out by the end of it ahha…

And please please please let me graduate with my degree intact this June… It all hinges on that darn Business Finance! Cant believe I’m doing more for an SU-ed paper than my core modules. Ridiculous man! hahah.

And my Pee pee is so adorable! hahah.. he was checking out locations of flats to buy. How can I NOT love him? T’is impossible!

Jasmine

Colors

You are the rainbow paintbrush that color the entire canvas of my life. 

No music can be great if there’s no life breathed into it.

How’s that? You are the life in someone else’s life. You are the force that induces tears of untold, quiet bliss. You are that white knight with that toothy smile brandishing your handsome sword gallantly, appearing in the lives of many, touching the lives of some, forever altering the life of one.

I love you. Thanks for a wonderful great year. You’ve sold me a dream I never want to extricate from, here’s to countless twinkling years ahead.

Jasmine

Darn that kancheong spider blood in me

As John said, and how true it is, both of us possess the kancheong spider blood. Possessors of this blood type, though uncommon, is not rare either. They cannot stand to wait, and despite being told “be patient” constantly, they simply cannot, which often results in failed surprises (by others), worry, unhappiness, and in a nutshell, unneccessary negative emotions.

I am a possessor of such blood. The SAD job market has triggered this. Second Class Upper? Ptooey! Oh gosh. I need to calm that bloody kancheong spider blood in me.

Good things come to people who wait. I’ll try my best to remember that Steph.

But then, I believe too, that opportunities are abound. The ones that grab them are the ones that deserve them. The ones that create them, are the ones that have no lack of them. Missed a few opportunities already, but let not the valiant heart falter.

Be CALM. You have a goal, you have dreams and ambition. Good things happen to people who wait. And when you wait patiently, opportunities will knock. Stay calm now, Jasmine. It’s not quite time yet to throw in the towel.

Saying thanks

First of all, CONGRATULATIONS ON MAKING IT TO HARVARD MISS LIM YAN STEPHANIE!!!!!!!! Hahah… too bloody shy to say it? I SHALL ANNOUNCE IT FOR YOU! NO NEED TO FEEL SHY NO MORE! hahah. Yes YEs YES! YOU READ RIGHT! Stephanie, “quite-the-genius” Lim is going to HARVARD where Bill Gates was from, where Mark Zuckerberg was from… yeah… She is heading there, where the Harvard air very possibly increases everyone’s IQ by about a hundred quotients? hahah… Congrats babe! Happy for you!

Ok… Now on to other stuff… Steph has her 5 secs of fame in my blog alr. hahah. Pls congratulate her when you next see her! The shy and modest girl might deny being a genius, but we all know better, don’t we (double entendre intended… If you even get it in the first place. If you dont, there can only be two reasons. (1) You dont know Steph well enough. Forgiveable. (2) That’s why you are not in Harvard. Unforgiveable)

Watched the Japanese movie, Okuribito (Departures), recently with Pips, his dajie, erjie and Han (Pip’s erjie’s soon-to-be husband in June), and it was a really really good film. ( I have a life besides FYP. Though it is the smallest kinda life, though those moments when I acty have a life is what do you call that? Few and far between hahah…)

The film approached it initially with a great dash of humor, and it was funny to see the protagonist’s horror at being stuck with a job and being put through uncomfy positions that he had no way (as with a more subdued form of culture) of rejecting.  This is the comic distance that I learnt from my film class, where we laugh at another’s misfortune because there is some distance placed between the audience and the protagonist, and we see the sequence that follows in a humorous light instead of his pain and anguish. If we were to be put in his position, *spoiler alert*, being jabbed in the ass and having it broadcast on national tv isn’t quite a funny situation at all.

And watching it, with the theme being centered on death, I was wondering how the director could maintain the tone of humor effectively, and probably in a sense, I am right. The director transited the movie smoothly from a humorous angle to a more sombre tone with penetrating touches of sensitivity and basically, a much more emotional angle.

It was a good film, one of the best I watched this year, and yes, it is BETTER than Slumdog millionaire. Maybe it is my affliction for Japanese stuff or simply the fact that I love dark humor, or clever humor, or maybe just plain humor (no dumbass slapstick gimmick shmick please). And the way the director handled it was very deft,  a few light touches here and there, that left indelible prints that warms the little corners that it presses on. Lovely movie really.

And well that day was a lovely day spent with Peepee as well. Swimming with him and his dajie. He managed to carry me with ease, without sweat finally… and the water did help alot obviously. The clever boy attempted to throw me up an catch me like the champion that he is but the moment that his hands were raised above water level, his reaction probably went smth like, OH MY GOD, SO HEAVY, and just as cleverly, he dropped me without catching me. hahah. So much for the champion huh.

Hahah and his poor dajie was prob subjected to us playing the monkeys. Throwing goggles, catching them. Diving and grabbing legs. piggybacking on the water. Swimming in one breath ( I did one entire breadth of the pool, and amazing Peepee did one entire lap. WOW). Aqua jogging. And the nicest thing we did was to swim backstroke holding hands =)

Jinny was asking me the other day about these two questions:
(1) What pecentage of uni students do you think have sex on the first date? (includes one night stands and the likes)
(2) What percentage of students do you think had sex in the past 6 months?

What is your answer? My answer was pretty close to the actual figures… Dunno how or where Jinny got the figures from though… dont ask me, ask her…

(1) 8% [sex on first date] (My guess: 5%. Pip’s guess: 5%)
(2) 26% [sex in the last 6 months] (My guess: 35%. Pip’s guess: 30%)

Dont ask me anything. I have no theories about that hahah.

Oh, and was hanging out with Kel n Jo today and Kel showed me this website which is really cool… http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/compatibility.asp

Basically it is an astrological website, and it is a great one cuz it says that Pips and I are the perfect match! Hahah… I don’t need anyone or anything to validate my relationship, but any positive validations are always a bonus

Look at what it says about Saggitarius and Aries:

Sagittarius + Aries

Fire + Fire = Explosion

Coming together with an Aries is all systems go! Sagittarius/Aries is a powerful and adventurous match, so an exciting joyride awaits you both in this fiery combination. In many cases it’s love at first sight — it won’t take long to fan the flames of each other’s desire.

Hahah… Maybe that’s why Peepee liked me back in… Korea? Teehee…

And this is the best part that matches both our birth dates:
Expect sparks to fly if you partner up with an Aries born between 21 April and 30 March. If you’re born between 2 December and 11 December, you are co-ruled by Mars — your relationship with these Arians will be explosive and passionate.

We are meant to be! hahah… Anws, I was just thinking about this the other day, about death and all that. I have always been scared of death, maybe because to me, I know not what it is, what it holds, what it means. Where do I go and more importantly, will I get to be surrounded by the people that matters so much to me right now? The people who make me, ME, and the people who add colors to my life? It is that fear of being separated from them, and having worms and maggots (HOW GROSS) eating away at my flesh, (that is why I refuse to be buried. Pls burn me) that scares me.

And thinking about this idea of death, it got me thinking and feeling that I dont think that this lifetime that I have with Pips is enough. That I look forward to each time of seeing him, being caught in him, safe and warm in his presence, and the sense of miss that I feel each time we kiss goodbye. And if this lifetime that I share with him is not enough, never enough, why would my eyes wander, and my heart, moral and integrity fail me at the presence of another man?

Jasmine